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Prologue
my wish

By s.m.kirby

I wish my dad was here to see,
all the new members added to the family tree.
He was only fifty two when he passed away,
Leaving a wife,five children and four grandchildren that day.
Now all of us are married,with children of our own,
When we all get together you can see
how much the tree has grown.

With ten grandchildren,eleven great grandchildren
and room for more,we need a bigger table to sit thirty four.
Oh how I wish my dad could see
all the new faces on our family tree.

Author Notes I am very blessed to have all my family living in the same city and being close to each other I love each one of them


Chapter 1
My son

By s.m.kirby

I have a son that is two years old,
that God gave to me to love and to hold.
But my son is dying from
cancer of the brain,
and my heart is crying through
the hurt and the pain.
I sometimes ask why
But I get no answers
God just doesn't reply
why my son has cancer.
I wish that i could understand
just what life really means
I know my son is in Gods hands
and that the life above
remains unseen


Chapter 2
My Little Boy

By s.m.kirby

My little boy with eyes so blue
Although they can not see
Put your trust into the lord
He will forever guide thee
My little boy with hands so small
You find your way through touch
Put your hands into God's hands
He loves you very much
My little boy with hair so brown
You struggle from day to day
Somewhere in Heaven
You'll receive a crown
And Heaven's not that far away

Author Notes thanking God for his insight


Chapter 3
My class

By s.m.kirby

I have fifteen little four year olds
in my class every single day.
Some are shy, and some are bold.
It shocks me what they say,
but they are still young.
They can be reached
and that is
why I
teach.

Author Notes I am a teacher to a class of four year olds. I love them.


Chapter 4
Boys will be boys

By s.m.kirby

My nephew Billy and my two sons
are in the back yard having so much fun.
Playing with the water hose and digging a hole
they say they are digging to the South Pole.
They were so cute, nice, clean and white,
now I see them and it's a scary sight.
Covered in mud from head to toes,
how can they breathe, where is their nose?
I wonder how long they'll soak in the tub.
I wonder how hard they'll have to scrub.
Three little boys as cute as can be,
you wouldn't think so if you saw what I see.

Author Notes this is about my children and nephew.


Chapter 5
Dad I'm sorry

By s.m.kirby

Oh how life can hurt us so,
if only there was a way to know
Just what lie around the bend
The broken hearts we could try to mend
Dad I'm sorry, I was blind
I don't know what was on my mind
Guess I thought God would see us through
And you would get better, just like Boo
Dad you weren't suppose to die
Now everyday I think of you and cry
I pray for a way to tell you I love you
And ask for your forgiveness too
But you are in Heaven, and I am here
And I guess I'll keep living with the fear
That you passed away hating me
Because I was dumb and didn't see
That God could close his eyes,and take your life
Away from your children and your wife
Now I don't know what I'm going to do
For everyday I'm still missing you

Author Notes I wrote this the day after my father passed away,I know that he loved me and he knew that I loved him and God answered our prayers for healing in a different way than he did for my son boo who beat cancer.God knows what is best for all his children


Chapter 6
Jesus

By s.m.kirby

Justifiably
Exceptionally
Sweet
Understanding
Savior


Chapter 7
Timing

By s.m.kirby

It's nine o'clock at night
And I am on the phone
My husband is ready for bed,
and won't leave me alone
kissing me on the back of my neck
rubbing my shoulders and what the heck
I whisper honey go away
No not him he wants to play.
I tell my boss that I have to go
I roll over into his arms.and you know
He makes my world just melt away
Here in his loving arms
Is where I want to stay

Author Notes Even after being married for twenty four years I still feel the same way


Chapter 8
New Day

By s.m.kirby

Woke up to new day
Thank you God
Lets get on our way


Chapter 9
Another Day

By s.m.kirby

They cut open my baby's head today,
To take a closer look to see.
but I didn't read in a book
and they did not tell me 
with your head all swollen
stitched up tight and
your face all black and blue
How could I as your mother 
let them do this to you 
Now here I sit in this hospital room
with a heart full of gloom
Because I know the angle of death
will be arriving soon

Author Notes after a long battle I gave up and let God be in control.Now my son is 34, thanking God daily.


Chapter 10
Door of life

By s.m.kirby

I was behind that door,
that was shut up tight.
Though he stood there
Knocking day and night.
Knocking and knocking
until I finally gave in.
Then he cleansed my soul
of all of my sin.

Now my door is open
both day and night.
Through God's love,
I found the light
My life is not dark
like it was before.
Thank you Jesus for
Knocking on my heart's
door.

Author Notes Revelations 3:20
Behold I stand at the door and knock.


Chapter 11
Anthony

By s.m.kirby


ANTHONY
Adorable little boy weighing in at nine pounds
Not really fat,just chubby and round
The day you were born,made my heart sing
Having you in my life is a big blessing
Other children may be cute cute as can be
None of them are as cute as you are to me
You are my little boy a wonderful little joy

Author Notes the birth of my second son.I am blessed with three sons


Chapter 12
Gods Healing Grace

By s.m.kirby

Remember my son who was two years old?
That little boy God gave me to love and to hold.
The child who has cancer of the brain,
Oh how I cried through the hurt and the pain.
God heard my cries without a doubt,
And in his time worked all things out.
Now my son is thirty four,
Living his life serving the Lord.
Telling everyone about God above
About his Mercy,Grace and Love.
How he sent his son to die for our sins,
How he offers forgiveness if we just let him in.

Author Notes To God be the glory.


Chapter 13
No Competition

By s.m.kirby

She knew she was being watched,and not from afar
He was staring at her from a door that was ajar.
She felt his presence before she met his eyes
In his hand was the knife ,and she had to sigh.
He was here to hurt her,hurt her through and through
Because she did what she thought she had to do.
She left him with his mean streak,that he hid inside
Which only came out at home where they did reside
Too scared to say a word,her mind just thought a prayer,
Jesus, if i'm going to die I'm glad you are my savior.
Without a word between them, he turned and walked away,
She fell to the floor thanking God for another day.
She did not hear from him for many months passed by
And when their paths crossed again, he began to cry
I'm sorry I tried to hurt you I thought that you were mine
you were his and always have been,and now I know it's fine.
I signed the papers when they came,now we don't share the same last name.


Chapter 14
Worship

By s.m.kirby

God created us to worship
Him and him alone
Instead he had to send
Jesus to safely guide us home
THANK YOU LORD


Chapter 15
Jesus makes me happy

By s.m.kirby

Jesus makes me happy
To him my praise I'm giving.
Since I met my savior
My life is all worth living.
He has blessed me with many things
That I am thankful for.
My husband,children family,friends
And a grandson I adore.
He knows how I like to write
To give him all the glory.
So he gave me a place to post them
Right here on our FanStory.
God bless you all


Chapter 16
Rainy day Monday

By s.m.kirby

While traveling to work today
With flashes of lighting on display.
I do enjoy watching the rain
Just not while driving,It's a pain.
Hands held tight to the steering wheel
It's hard to explain how I feel.
So I whisper a prayer for safe travel
Then all my anxieties begin to unravel.
And as across the bridge I go
Over the water is a rainbow
Like God himself was talking to me
He is in control if I let him be .
So no matter rain or shine
I'm glad God is a friend of mine.

Author Notes God is good


Chapter 17
He is so sweet

By s.m.kirby

Ten kisses for ten fingers
Ten kisses for ten toes.
One for his belly button
and one for his nose.

Grandchildren are
a gift from above.
I thank God for my
grandson that I love.

I give him kisses
under his chin.
He laughs and laughs
So I do it again.

Two kisses for his hands
Two kisses for his feet.
I could kiss him all day
because he is so sweet.

Author Notes For my first grandson Brighton scott


Chapter 18
I want to be a servant too

By s.m.kirby

She had wealth,and she had fame.
In her life there was no shame.
Then a child of Gods she became.
And nothing since has been the same.

She has no wealth,she has no fame,
She gave it away in Jesus name
The world all say shes gone insane.
But you won't hear her complain,

Because living to serve,is the
name of the game.


Chapter 19
Gods Grace

By s.m.kirby

Born of sin nature from Adam and Eve,
a generational thing passed down to me.
We are all sinners upon this earth,
Can only find grace in a second birth.
The wages of sin is death God tells,
Through Jesus he saves us from hell.
Jesus died on the cross for our sins,
He offers forgiveness if we believe in him.
Now I'm just a sinner saved by grace,
Because Jesus Christ took my place.
I am thankful to our God above,
For his Mercy, Grace and Love.

Author Notes 88 words


Chapter 20
I'm the happy baker

By s.m.kirby

I'm the happy baker
I love to bake.
Owey gooey cookies
And a special cake.
So come along children,
and follow me.
I will use you,
in my recipe.

Sweet little fingers
wrapped in dough.
Oh the grown ups
love them so.
And just for Halloween
a special treat.
A very sticky stinky pie,
and I will use your feet!
So come along children,
and follow me.
I will use you
in my recipe.


Chapter 21
Just a storm

By s.m.kirby

It is so hard to tell someone you love
that your heart is breaking
It is hard to watch them go down the path
in life they are taking.
I know children learn by making their
own mistake.And There are consequences
for the choices that they make.
Everything that happens, happens for
a reason.
A storm in our life is only here for
a season.
I realize that this to will become
our past.
I just don't know how long this storm
will last.
So i'm going to trust God as he puts the
pieces together.
Because he holds me in his hands through
all kinds of weather.

Author Notes thank you to ademuro for the picture


Chapter 22
God Bless My Friend

By s.m.kirby

A true friend is like a rose
in our garden of life.
It does not matter if you're
a mom.Dad,husband or wife.

If you have one.who Is
really true.
That one true friend who
is a blessing to you.

Then you'll understand why
I'm taking this time.
To thank God for the
loving friend of mine.

Friends are the roses in
lifes bouquet.
She means more than a
painting by Monet.

God Bless my friend each
and every day.
It is in your son Jesus name
I pray.


Chapter 23
Thank You Mom

By s.m.kirby

Dearest Mom,

As an infant I never said
Thank you for changing and
feeding me.

As a toddler I never said
Thank you for all the things
you did with me.

As a teen, well we both
know I would never say
Thank you back then.

But as an adult I just
want to say Thank you again
and again

As a mother you loved me
through thick and thin
or rain and shine

I'm proud to say the best
mom in this world just
happens to be mine.

Author Notes Want my mother to know how I feel now while I have her in my life and not wait till I can,t let her know I love you mom


Chapter 24
Storms of life

By s.m.kirby

My life's in a storm
It feels like a hurricane
No matter its form
There is peace in Jesus name
So I'll trust him just the same.

Author Notes THIS TOo WILL PASS,


Chapter 25
The beauty of love

By s.m.kirby

I love my husband of twenty five years
I love our children through laughs or tears
I love all my friends and family
And I know that they love me
I even try to love my enemies too
But no one loves me God like you.

Precious father in heaven above
You sent Jesus out of love
He took that journey to Calvary
To die on the cross just for me
And for that there is no greater love
Than that from our heavenly father above.

Author Notes John 3;16 For God so loved the world he gave his only begotten son so the whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.


Chapter 26
Wishful thinking granted

By s.m.kirby

I was granted a wish upon a star
And I knew it would come true.
I wished for people, near and far
To come know Jesus, the way I do.
Then I would watch the glorious view
As the love of Jesus came pouring through.
No more hatred,violence or crime
we all loved each other till the end of time.
Then the gates of heaven were opened wide
We all gathered together to go inside.
Where we stood before our God above
Who created all of us to live and love.

Author Notes John 3:17 For God sent not his son into the world to condemn the world ,but that the world through him might be saved.


Chapter 27
My Faith is in Jesus

By s.m.kirby

I wonder why in this world that Jesus is so hated.
For when I take a look around
I'm thankful for all He created.
You believe in God the Father.
You believe in the Holy Spirit.
You don't believe in the Son
And you don't want to hear it.
To be told that Jesus is the
Only Way to our Heavenly Father above.
To be told he died on the Cross
For our sins,
and he did it out of love.
You say that I am stupid,I am foolish to believe.
All that I can say
Is I will pray for thee
And ask our Lord to touch your heart
The way that He has touched mine.
That you will believe in Jesus
Before the end of time.
Than together we will praise Him
For all eternity.
For I would really like to see you there
Praising Him with me.
So listen carefully with your heart.
To the words God does tell,
It is only to believe in Jesus
That will save your soul from Hell


Chapter 28
God Mends a Broken Heart

By s.m.kirby

You went to the shelter, with a pet in mind.
Not really sure of what you would find.
Somehow you knew which one was best.
Didn't feel the need to look at the rest.
You gathered him up to go home with you.
For the rest of his life, he was loyal and true.
As a puppy he was full of a lot of energy.
With a look that said, come play with me.
As the years past it would never fail.
He'd greet you at the door wagging his tail.
Yes __________ your beautiful furry son,
Happy by your side when the day was done.
The day came, He went to heaven at last.
Leaving you with memories of the past.
It hurts when one we love has to part.
But in time. God mends a broken heart.


Chapter 29
Thank You God

By s.m.kirby

Thank you God for loving me.
For all the things that you have done.
The gift of life you give is free.
Thank you God for loving me.
The gift of life for all eternity .
Through the blood of Jesus Christ your son.
Thank you God for loving me.
For all the things that you have done.

Author Notes I am thankful for the blessed assurance of my salvation through our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.


Chapter 30
I'm Not Stupid

By s.m.kirby

I may not be the smartest apple
to fall off my fathers tree.
I have a brother and three sisters
who may be smarter than me.
But I'm not stupid,I can think
for my self.
I get my knowledge from a book
that is up on my shelf.
It's my old Bible,the pages are worn.
When my children were small,
A few pages got torn.
So for those who think I'm stupid,
Just because I believe.
Then let me be stupid in believing
For what Jesus Christ has done for me.

Author Notes This is what came to mind after being called stupid.


Chapter 31
Praise Jesus

By s.m.kirby

Pray
Repent
Acknowledge
Incur
Salvation
Eternally

Jesus
Excepts
Sinners
Unconditionally
Saves



Chapter 32
A simple Prayer

By s.m.kirby

Heavenly Father I lift sweetwoodjax
up in prayers to you.
There is nothing that I
can say or do.
To give her comfort
on this day.
For her husband has
just passed away.

I know she is hurting
and feeling sad.
I understand this,
I lost my dad.
So draw her close
and hold her tight.
Please give her a peaceful
rest tonight. Thank you
Amen


Chapter 33
A reason to smile

By s.m.kirby

Jesus died for me.
Smile if you also believe.
Thanking God daily.


Chapter 34
A Granddaughter For Me

By s.m.kirby

I now have a granddaughter,
Her name is Ryleigh Jean.
She is the most beautiful girl
That I have ever seen.
With her daddy's lips,
Her mamma's nose.
She has a pretty face.
all dressed up in baby pink,
Trimmed in soft white lace.
She is a precious gift
from our Father above.
To him I have a thankful heart,
For my new granddaughter to love.

Author Notes Having a husband and three sons and my first born grand child a boy I can only say I am so happy to have a granddaughter.My favorite color is pink.


Chapter 35
Grandmas little angel

By s.m.kirby

Listening to the children playing.
"I will be just like Grandma"
is what she's saying.

Author Notes I love watching my grandchildren,


Chapter 36
Little noise makers

By s.m.kirby

Getting ready for our October fest,
My three year old class is the best.
Singing songs and reciting rhymes,
But now it is instruments time.
Drums banging- BOOM,BOOM,DA BOOM,
Bells ringing-ding,ding ring-a-ling,
The jangling of those tambourines.
Add in all the shake,shake,shake,
for the children with the shakers,
Welcome to my class of little noise makers.


Chapter 37
Pain

By s.m.kirby

I really don't like the way that things are
I can't run the vacuum and I can't drive a car.
It hurts to sit down,it hurts to just stand
So pop another pill and go to la- la land.
This is not me it's not living my life
I am a mother,a grandma and my husbands wife.
With so many things that need to be done
By me, not my husband grandchildren, or son.
I need to learn how to deal with this pain
If I don't then I know I will just go insane.

Author Notes Wrote this back on 6/10/ 15 I still have pain but not as bad.


Chapter 38
This Day

By s.m.kirby

What a wonderful day this is going to be.
Because I know Jesus is walking with me.
Whatever life holds around the bend,
I find comfort in knowing he's my friend.
He gives me the strength to do as I must,
He is the one true friend I know I can trust.
He promised he would never leave or forsake me,
For that promise,I love,praise and thank thee.
Knowing we will never part,
Gives me a happy,happy heart.


Chapter 39
Talking with Mom

By s.m.kirby

I dreamed I was talking to mom on the phone.
 
 
I asked her where she was?  She said home.
 
I told her I would come over, But Anthony has the car.
 
She told me no, You need to stay where you are.
 
She said she was fine don't worry about me,
 
She has places to go and people to see.
 
I listened as she talked about a wonderful place,
 
How she walked with Jesus,And saw God face to face.
 
My dad was there to greet her when she got inside,
 
My brother and  nephew were there by his side.
 
She was visiting with her mom, dad and family.
 
So many people you just wouldn't believe.
 
Then she said gotta go,  meeting friends for lunch,
 
So you have a good day Sandra,I love you a bunch.

Author Notes This is the second time I have dreamed of my mother since she has passed away. I still miss her.


Chapter 40
time for pumpkin pies

By s.m.kirby

Autumn I will take,
Give me a lot of pumpkins.
For the pies I'll bake.

Author Notes I love baking. I do it mostly in fall and winter.


Chapter 41
Children Playing

By s.m.kirby

Watching children play.
Their laughter fills up the air.
They'll grow up some day.


Chapter 42
Welcome Spring

By s.m.kirby

The birds are singing,
For Spring is finally here.
Sing prety birds sing.


Chapter 43
I'll always miss you

By s.m.kirby

It has been three months today.
since you have passed away.
It hurt so bad with you going.
I wonder what all you are doing.
I miss you!

Down the streets of gold
I hope that you are skipping.
Or are you by the crystal sea?
Remember no skinny dipping.
I miss you!

I am trying to be strong,
to do all that I must do.
but not a day goes by
That I don't think of you.
I miss you!

I hope heaven is beautiful.
The way you thought it would be.
I can't wait till my time is up.
So, at the gates of heaven,
You will be there to greet me.
I miss you!
I will always miss you.


Chapter 44
The reviewer

By s.m.kirby

Thanking God for you.
The one who takes the time out.
To post a review.


Chapter 45
every breath

By s.m.kirby

Breathing
a gift from God.
Just breath.


Chapter 46
Smiling

By s.m.kirby

Smile it's contagious
Just go and pass it around.
Maybe you will get one back.
 
If you have a smile
One that you can really share.
You just might make someone's day.


Chapter 47
Election 2024

By s.m.kirby

It is election time again.
I'm not sure who will win.
One of them will surely lose.
I hope it's not the one I choose.
I'll just have to pray till then.


Chapter 48
The promise

By s.m.kirby

When surrounded by total darkness.
When you can't seem to find the light,
Whisper a silent prayer
Ask God to give you sight.
He will get you through,
It's his promise
It's true to 
me and 
you.


Chapter 49
The love of Jesus

By s.m.kirby

I'm a sinner,saved by grace.
I try to live my life
for all the world to see.
The spirit of
JESUS CHRIST
in me.


Chapter 50
Mixed feelings

By s.m.kirby

I don't know what's wrong with me today.
I guess I am just thinking of my son going away.
He joined the army; and of him I am proud.
Why am I like this. For crying out loud.
The Lord said do not worry or be afraid.
Every day is a new day God has made.
So, I am going to rejoice, and be glad in it.
Because God is in control of everything,
Every day, every hour, every minute.


Chapter 51
God's Blessings

By s.m.kirby

I woke up
A new day.
I'm thankful

Food to eat
clothes to wear.
I'm thankful

Family
around me.
I'm thankful

I can see
he loves me.
I'm thankful.



Author Notes I am just thankful for all the blessing I have in life.
God is good.


Chapter 52
A Windy Day

By s.m.kirby

It is pretty windy
outside today.
Let us fly our kites
my grandchildren say.

Author Notes I love spending time with my two grandchildren, Thank God they still take naps. Thank you VMarguarite for the beautiful artwork.


Chapter 53
Grandchildren

By s.m.kirby

My grandchildren
Brighton and Ryleigh Jean,
They are the two cutest children
This old grandma has ever seen.
Brighton is five years old,Ryleigh Jean is only four.
They both have their own type of personality.
Well mannered,sweet,loving and kind.
Yes I do adore
My grandchildren.


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