"Last Day to Believe?"
Written on March 21th, 2024
By Doctor Ricky 1024
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January 13th, 2022.
(Friday the thirteenth)
I became for the first time in my Life. "Homeless."
And, at one point it came back to Haunt, curse me.
These feelings of hate for just two people.
God, they won't go away!
I just want them both to die or suffer.
Suffer like I do each and every day!
Yes, because I helped and tried to
"Just Believe."
Believe that this woman was real and needed my help as a friend.
This monster I shall come to know as Dawn Deborah Reel.
Aka "Dee, Dee"
...
Sixty-eight days.
Days of where the Hell?
God, am I going to stay?
Who is going to help?
Help me but why?
As all these "Homeless Feelings."
Yes, that I now have come to realize.
Realize and would cry.
...
Realize that eventually all my many and Beautiful Belongings.
My Beautiful pictures of my family!
My clothing, jewelry, poetry, and other important possessions.
Possessions that I had been forced and left behind.
...
Like a child with no rights.
And, now wandering the streets alone at night.
Yes, my belongings now would be disposed of or placed in a storage facility.
They even punished my poor cat.
Those Dirty Rays!
Yes, whom my landlord Joesph came to love?
...
Yes, like me would be dumped in a shelter without my permission!
All because of his evil thoughts of me watching the televisions transmission!
All because I like to shower babe at least three times a day?
By the cruelty of not only this woman,
"Dee, Dee.'
But also my former friend Joseph Vigil.
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So God, now I would learn how the Homeless people survive.
Some that lived in make-shift tents but will come in out of the Extreme cold .
And, into the shelters such as
"Just Believe."
And, "True Vine."
And, the others with no place to live.
They enclosed and surrounded themselves.
Yes, each and every day.
Within the Sin of their alcoholic Nightmares of past Life.
...
Yes, addictions were the main problem.
As I wait in the horrible cold.
Sometimes for the second trip. Because the vehicle was so filled.
I saw that these people getting on the
"Just Believe" van.
...
No longer believed.
Tired, run down, cold, and in pain.
Some had previously left their hidden dark place, after puncturing the vein.
Yes, were asked if they had drank and how much they had drank. .
Some of them had even wet themselves.
Others would share marijuana weed together.
Like it was a normal ritual right before the van would pick them up.
...
Even though I was homeless and my funds were limited.
Yes, I would still hand out $20 bills.
Yes to those.
Those I felt really needed the money and weren't going to drink themselves away.
Note: Each and every day in the United States.
Two hundred homeless people die because of their individual situations.
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Note: "Just Believe" is a Code Blue warming shelter located in Toms River, New Jersey.
It needs to be below 35 degress for the shelter to open.
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Started by Pat and his wife.
Pat is a recovered alcoholic.
And runs the facility with many other former homeless people who had addictions their selves.
...
As I came to know the staff.
interact with them, I realized these are the "Real people."
With just past problems.
They now work and have jobs.
They also own their own houses or are almost back to that point.
While, giving completely of themselves!
...
Two of the people I came to know.
One called himself "Philly."
He was in charge of running the facility.
Philly is the Enforcer with the largest Broken heart .
Yeah just got out of the hospital I believe for cancer.
Keeping the peace and also in charge of pickups.
And, then there was another broken Soul.
Another patch suicide victim .
I came to know and love known as "Donna."
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Who spends many hours interacting and serving the food to the members.
Food that's cooked and prepared by the Toms River culinary art school and donated!
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Donna a former Female MMA boxer.
Had tried to commit suicide only three years ago.
She has had a hard life with one of her sons whom was addicted to heroin.
Yes, and died several times.
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Note: Donna's husband is a former musician.
(Whom also still plays)
Spends time driving the vehicle and also is a recovered addict.
Many others also generated many hours.
We celebrated four birthday parties.
And, one was for my little friend Rowan,
This 8-year-old whom acted much older.
Yes, interacted with all of the members of "Just Believe."
And, I came to love him so much.
...
He noticed that I like to wear very large Invicta watches.
So, I went out and bought him a watch at the local Walmart for his birthday.
Yes, which came with a little flashlight!
I bought an Invicta Joker watch for our resident joker Philly!
He kept pestering me that it was his birthday!
Just the month before in January.
And asked me when I was getting him a watch.
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I will never forget my experience was teaching Rowan how to shoot pool with one hand!.
And all the wonderful memories and time spent there at "Just Believe!"
Who is the son of one Pat and his wife Lisa.
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Then there is Kevin
Kevin whom would occasionally spend the night.
And, also drive the van to pick us up. He also had a job working on Long Beach Island,, New Jersey.
A past and still struggling recovered alcoholic.
Once in a while, he would stop and buy Wawa coffee for the gang.
Yes, before returning us to the transit station and the cold.
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I realize how wonderful people can still be.
Yes, and even after their past problems.
And I do now Believe!
Yes, that hopefully that there is Hope for *Mankind.