Buddhist, Wiccan, Pagan <ME>

by Stef Lau

At one point in my life, I discovered that the church I was being forced to go to was a cult. I saw the catholic churcb as a meaningless place full of sheep following the teachings that weren't exactly about the people... the humans were not the main point of the stories. It was mainly about the morals, karma, kindness & compassion we are supposed to have for people and other beings within our existence. I decided I did not believe in this system or the way this was presented. I saw and interacted with these people that were filled with hate & disgust for any human that did not believe what they believed; or dressed how they dressed or did things designated in their bible that was supposed to be done or carried out the exact way they carried it out.

So I began my search..... I read about Athiesm; Definitely not for me! I then began my wiccan journey. During this time I was not 100% completely in belief of the God and Goddess situation within it just because I thought there was more, but then again that could've just been the PTSD from being forced to a bunch of different catholic churches & maybe I felt threatened by the "god" word just alone. I did just become a "real" adult, moving into my first apartment & newly being an active member of society. But I did believe in the spectrum of time the God & The Goddess ruled within our four seasons; it just felt appropriate.
I then dove head first into Buddhism.... FULL FORCE! I was just hanging out at Cafe Aroma one day; where I taught myself to be able to read with noises surrounding me, And I decided to head over to the connecting bookstore. "The Talking Leafs" was an amazing bookstore! As I am going through the western religions area I stumble across this book called "how to see yourself as you truly are" by the Dahli Laima (translated by some other dude i can't think of) & my first laughing Buddha statue that which I took home. This book broke everything down and I heard every miniscule drop. It became my bible, while I was being manipulated & regularly abused psychologically. I became drunk with the positive force! I drank so much positivity and focused so hard on it, that I saw none of the negative surroundings circumfrancing my physical presence. I wish my eyes would've been clearer then. Positively Love Drunk, was I. Later I realized, once my Lupus was diagnosed & I was overdosed on Prednisone, that the positivity was drowning reality with Hope & the possibility of my career options. I then started properly distributing the positive with the negative & the simplicity of analysis within it all.
I was attending Villa Maria College for my Fine Arts Associate Degree focusing souly (soley) on the business I've always wanted to have. I then started diving deep into the Old Gods & Greek Mythology due to my Art History class. I absolutely love the Greeks belief system and their magnificant artwork. The sculptures themselves speak on so many different levels! It was intoxicating and so beautiful!!

I whole-heartedly believe in my Pagan- Viking lifestyle. during the research of my family tree and the knowledge of my favorite witchy Aunt I learned that I am part Norwegian Viking. The natural green witch within is stemmed from my ancestry & the escapies from the salam witch trials. I believe in the gifts and the trials the Gods & Goddess' have put forthe within my existence & everyone elses. There is always a reason, always a door & always a window open or shut for whatever reason you are not capable of seeing within our human perception. This religion makes the most sense to me with a little lifestyle Buddhism mixed in. It's a perfict potion to drink regularly and it goes so well together that it is also grounding me to the Divine Universe along with all of its energy. Paganism has completely centered my existence within the chaos of life.

In the entire faith spectrum of my life, It has been a wild journey on multiple different paths that all come to a beautiful coven triangle naturally being the strongest shape within existence. The reason this is the strongest shape is because every angle is fixed and the rigidity of all sides allows weight to be placed on each side instead of one alone. Within these three points I have the base support, guidance & tools to make it through anything!

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This is the journey of my faith. Originally, my mother's belief system was to force me into her religion without a choice & without questions being allowed. It was used as a threat and a punishment to isolate and cause more problems within my life. It is a choice not every catholic person chooses but it should be supported to ask questions without taking offense. I don't believe every catholic human is like that, nor do I believe in fighting with anyone about their beliefs. I do not hold anything against anyone for their beliefs nor do I fight with them about my belief versus their belief. I don't believe that's what religion is for.

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