Fifty one and done? - I don't think so!!!
I am done with all of my old bad habits and I am learning how to live a healthier life, or what may be left of it.

I've been fond of drinking beer, and have since the age of about 13 years old. Alcohol was my last demon to slay, and I know I only left that behind due to my failing health. Every man has to have some flaw, no human is perfect, right?

I grew up in the sex, drugs, and rock-n-roll era, and boy did I get my share - at least of the last two of those three.
I have always believed in the saying "If you want to play, you gotta pay" but then again, I never thought much of the things that could go wrong, always looking for the good or fun side of things, I guess.

I've also been around some pretty toxic stuff during the majority of my aircraft manufacturing career to the point that I wondered how much of that is contributing to my health issues now. Your Kidneys and Liver filter the toxins in your blood and damage to those organs was one of the claims some of my peers were contending were the result of exposure while working with these materials used in the manufacturing and assembly of secret "stealth" aerospace projects.

I, like my mom's side of the family also have had lots of adult Diabetes related health issues which also can contribute to Kidney problems.

In the end it won't matter or change the outcome of my current situation.
I am not one who likes to dwell in the past. I believe we need to move forward and move on.

So I'll continue to be Thankful and Grateful for the good things I have in my life, ask forgiveness for the bad things I have done, continue to pray for the wisdom to know and recognize the difference between the two, and strive to do the very best I can.
I also share the belief that our spirits are housed in these temporary vessels we call bodies and will transition to other state of "being" one day.

When I look back through the history of man, I find that although much has changed in a technological sense, we have still not mastered the basic chemical elements that make man tick.

Going back to the days when my ancient Chichimecan ancestors wanted to foresee the future they ingested certain plants and fruits to get to an altered state of being. In today's world, a doctor's prescribed medications can have the same effects.

Broken down it still amounts to positive or negative chemical reactions to different organisms within our human bodies and how it effects us in this physical state of being.

What we should remember and what will matter in the end is, what we will carry with us deep in our souls, for that is what will most likely determine what we carry to the next realm.