godfather
Sadly I was not his only victim42 total reviews
Comment from Heather Knight
I've heard many stories about child abuse (never first hand though), but it's still impossible to understand how there can be people like that out there.
I'm happy to hear you've been able to overcome both traumas, even if that man stole your childhood.
Your dad sounds like a lovely man.
I just finished reading a YA novel called Speak that has some similarities with the second part of your story.
Thanks for sharing. You are very brave. I think writers can always help others who are going through similar experience.
reply by the author on 16-Oct-2022
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I've heard many stories about child abuse (never first hand though), but it's still impossible to understand how there can be people like that out there.
I'm happy to hear you've been able to overcome both traumas, even if that man stole your childhood.
Your dad sounds like a lovely man.
I just finished reading a YA novel called Speak that has some similarities with the second part of your story.
Thanks for sharing. You are very brave. I think writers can always help others who are going through similar experience.
Comment Written 16-Oct-2022
reply by the author on 16-Oct-2022
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Wow, Heather that was fast and you are just so sweet. I truly didn't expect the review or the six stars, but I am overwhelmed with your kindness, lovely words and the extra stars.I agree that helping others is a much greater reward than just doing for ourselves. Just as you did your sweet poem for Helen. I thank you with all my heart my dear friend,
Comment from nomi338
lease know that nothing escapes the notice of Jehovah God, if your abuser confesses his sin and begs for forgiveness, he may find it through God's mercy. If he fails to truly repent, and is guilty of doing this to other children, it will not go well for him. We are all weak and guilty of things we should never have done. Hurting a child and not feeling remorse as well as fight very hard to never do anything like it again, is unforgivable. I grieve for you my dear sister, I hate that you had to go through this alone. May God grant you peace and healing, and may you never have to endure anything this horrible ever again.
reply by the author on 15-Aug-2022
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lease know that nothing escapes the notice of Jehovah God, if your abuser confesses his sin and begs for forgiveness, he may find it through God's mercy. If he fails to truly repent, and is guilty of doing this to other children, it will not go well for him. We are all weak and guilty of things we should never have done. Hurting a child and not feeling remorse as well as fight very hard to never do anything like it again, is unforgivable. I grieve for you my dear sister, I hate that you had to go through this alone. May God grant you peace and healing, and may you never have to endure anything this horrible ever again.
Comment Written 15-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 15-Aug-2022
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Nomi, I can't believe you did this. I don't t know what to say. I do thank you so much but, well you know. You are such an amazing man. I do hope he repented as he has lots to repent for. Two of my three older sisters were also molested by him and they both hid it too for the same reason. Also my uncle's oldest daughter who committed suicide at 22. He was a very sick man, but thankful that we didn't tell my dad earlier or he might have killed him and then the threats would have come true because my dad would have probably spent the rest of his life in prison. So it's fine now, but that is why I love so hard now because I didn't trust people for so many years, especially men. And after turning my life to Christ, I promised God that I wanted to spend the rest of my days being a blessing to others and especially to those who are hurting. So now you also know why I am who I am and why I am talk too much too! Look at me go on and on on on and on and never shut up too! Haha! Thank you for this awesome review and comforting words and for another 6 stars. You are the greatest!
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Man of us are formed by things that either happened to us or things that we witnessed as children. When I was very young my two older sisters and I witnessed a neighbor kill his wife right in front of us I can still hear the sound of the metal pole he hit her with and that happened more than sixty years ago.
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That would be devastating.
This man went to prison obviously. I bet your parents were so worried about you as kids, about what you had seen. I am glad that it didn't affect the man you became..
Comment from GARY MACLEAN
I did read this. I clearly remember it because it made me angry! Not just because I have gotten to know and respect you but because no man should be able to do to any young girl or lady what this beast did to you. I must just not have had the time to respond. I am certainly glad you brought my attention to the fact that you didn't see where I had reviewed it. (Alzheimer's, you know)
I feel for your father as much as I feel for you. If anyone did that to my little girl, I am afraid of what I might do, brother or not. I would not, could not rest until that man was eliminated.
I know who you are today, and I respect you and care for far you too deeply to think either of these incidents were any of your doing, they could not possibly be. Crimes against nature like this should be punishable by life imprisonment or even death. The perpetrator not only commits a crime for the minute, but he incites a prevailing pain and damage for years to come.
I know you say you are past it, and I am sure your faith in Christ has brought you through it, but I do know, because I feel I know you well enough, that the imbedded pain remains and will always be there in some form of hate, regret, anguish or some other soul debilitating emotion. And that he should have had to pay for.
No, never capitalize his name, he truly does not deserve it.
Excellent baring of the soul Debi, excellent!
reply by the author on 15-Aug-2022
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I did read this. I clearly remember it because it made me angry! Not just because I have gotten to know and respect you but because no man should be able to do to any young girl or lady what this beast did to you. I must just not have had the time to respond. I am certainly glad you brought my attention to the fact that you didn't see where I had reviewed it. (Alzheimer's, you know)
I feel for your father as much as I feel for you. If anyone did that to my little girl, I am afraid of what I might do, brother or not. I would not, could not rest until that man was eliminated.
I know who you are today, and I respect you and care for far you too deeply to think either of these incidents were any of your doing, they could not possibly be. Crimes against nature like this should be punishable by life imprisonment or even death. The perpetrator not only commits a crime for the minute, but he incites a prevailing pain and damage for years to come.
I know you say you are past it, and I am sure your faith in Christ has brought you through it, but I do know, because I feel I know you well enough, that the imbedded pain remains and will always be there in some form of hate, regret, anguish or some other soul debilitating emotion. And that he should have had to pay for.
No, never capitalize his name, he truly does not deserve it.
Excellent baring of the soul Debi, excellent!
Comment Written 15-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 15-Aug-2022
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Now you understand why I asked you, as it's not me to try to beg for reviews, but because you knew, it meant a lot to me that you read it even if you wouldn't have reviewed it. There is a little bit more that makes my heart ache for my dad & more, as my three sisters are from my dad's first marriage but his wife died when the girls were 3, 4 and 5 yrs old. So my dad had them stay at his sister and brother in-law's house for a month after him and my mom had dated and were going to marry. Two of my sisters had also been molested by him and kept it a secret until they got older. But they had told my dad a few years earlier right after our uncle died so he had already gone thru the pain of it. But they never told me about it, but am not sure why. It is a good thing that none of us brought it up before because dad might have killed him and then the threats of something bad happening to him would have come true. He would have gone to prison. Also hid oldest daughter, my cousin committed suicide when she was 22. My aunt knew about him but stayed w him, so we hated her just as bad. Yes it still haunts me but he destroyed my childhood, so won't let him screw up the rest of what time I have left. Thank you so much my dear dear friend as I appreciate it so much.
It served its purpose as many have come forward w stories from their past that they could relate. Thanks again!
Comment from tempeste
Ciao mystery poet, you have 17 votes now .
Family and kin should protect each other , your uncle destroyed your life , it s a shame he didn't die earlier.
Scum like that will rot in Hell.
I can imagine it was devastating for your father to hear your confession but it marked the beginning of your rebirth.
Glad you found solace in God.
I can see poetry helps you rid of the pain.
I wish you inner peace.
Take care!
reply by the author on 12-Aug-2022
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Ciao mystery poet, you have 17 votes now .
Family and kin should protect each other , your uncle destroyed your life , it s a shame he didn't die earlier.
Scum like that will rot in Hell.
I can imagine it was devastating for your father to hear your confession but it marked the beginning of your rebirth.
Glad you found solace in God.
I can see poetry helps you rid of the pain.
I wish you inner peace.
Take care!
Comment Written 11-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 12-Aug-2022
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Thank you for the very kind review and words regarding my story. Thankfully. we can't get let evil win so I won't let them destroy what time I have left. Thank you for your heartfelt comments
Comment from Sally Law
Oh my dear, I wish I could hug you for being so brave. To know that the Lord has healed you and made you loved and whole makes this bearable. You have overcome much! A look inside your younger self, which thankfully didn't define you!
Sending you my best today as always and best wishes for the upcoming contest,
Sally Law xoxo's
reply by the author on 11-Aug-2022
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Oh my dear, I wish I could hug you for being so brave. To know that the Lord has healed you and made you loved and whole makes this bearable. You have overcome much! A look inside your younger self, which thankfully didn't define you!
Sending you my best today as always and best wishes for the upcoming contest,
Sally Law xoxo's
Comment Written 11-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 11-Aug-2022
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You are such a lovely friend Sally! Thank you so very much for your very kind words. I think what God's love instilled in me most, was that this sick man destroyed most of my first half of my life, so why would I let him and satan have the satisfaction of ruling what I had left. What was also hard was there were other lives, as I also found out that 2 of my older sisters had it happen to them and his own daughter who committed suicide at 22. My 3 sisters lived with them for a while after their first mother died when they were 3, 4 and 5 yrs old. And my dad had to work so it was his sister and husband that took them until my dad married my mom. My sisters told my dad right after I did and they had also feared that our uncle would hurt our dad, but as adults we all feared that if we told, our dad would kill him and then his threats would surely come true, that something bad would happen, that our dad would go to prison. So we all kept it to ourselves. My sisters said they always prayed it hadn't happened to me, but now we wish that we had not held the secret for so long. Our poor dad cried so hard when he heard it.and I don't know if he was able to forgive or not before he died. Thankfully our mother dying young saved her from the truth. And that is why I finally wrote about it and I can't believe how many have come forward and told me things that they have had buried for so long. Sorry for going on and on, but this is still therapy for me,
Thanks again for listening, my lovely friend!
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You're most welcome. Yes, I had one close friend who confided in me when we were adults about a male relationship that raped her repeatedly. She says if it wasn't for the grace of God and lots of ministry, she be in the nut House. (Her term.) I wished she had told because he was probably a serial rapist and had done it to countless other.
I send love and blessings to you and yours,
Sally Law XOs
Comment from Pearl Edwards
This is a sad poem to read and for you to share with us. Unfortunately too many children are traumatised by these acts, thanks to your inner strength you are able to help yourself and maybe others. I wish you well.
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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This is a sad poem to read and for you to share with us. Unfortunately too many children are traumatised by these acts, thanks to your inner strength you are able to help yourself and maybe others. I wish you well.
Comment Written 09-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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Thank you for your most thoughtful and caring review and comments my friend. As always you are so kind and I truly appreciate your very gracious gift of six stars. I never planned on revisiting this half of my painful life, but God seemed to nudge me in that direction. My intentions were to help others and I am so thankful since so many have opened up and shared similar experiences and in return they have helped me. Thank you again!
Comment from l.raven
I am so very sorry this happened to you...
we all handle things in our own time...and in
our own ways...I thank God He walked you through it...
He is a Good Good Father...
I don't believe it is something you will ever forget...
but in your heart you can forgive...
I remember my pastor preaching that we have to forgive...we won't forget...but we have to forgive others if we want to be forgiven...
and I was sitting there thinking...I can do this...ok!!...I can forgive...I just don't have to speak to them again...
and for some reason...the pastor looked right at me...and said...I don't mean you say the words...I forgive...and walk away...I mean...it comes from your heart...you let the anger go...put it in God's hands...and forgive...I remember thinking...not yet...but I will try...
my sister was rape by her high school crush...and I was the only one she told...before she told me...she had me swear on a bible I wouldn't tell anyone...for 30 years I lived
that rape with her...until she finally told my mother...
at the time it happened I so wanted to tell my father...but I knew he would have killed him...he lived across the street from us...
I wasn't even the one raped...even though at times it felt
like it...so every time I try to forgive this guy...memories
flood my head...maybe if it had been me I could forgive him...but it was my sister...and she was not the fighter...I was...I say at times....I forgive him...but it's not etched in stone just yet...my sister passed last year...and I believe in my heart she forgave him...I guess if she could forgive...so can I...
thank you for sharing your story told...as your story was so very sad...your poem was very well written...and your picture says it all...I'm so glad you found healing through God...God Bless...love you...Linda xxoo
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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I am so very sorry this happened to you...
we all handle things in our own time...and in
our own ways...I thank God He walked you through it...
He is a Good Good Father...
I don't believe it is something you will ever forget...
but in your heart you can forgive...
I remember my pastor preaching that we have to forgive...we won't forget...but we have to forgive others if we want to be forgiven...
and I was sitting there thinking...I can do this...ok!!...I can forgive...I just don't have to speak to them again...
and for some reason...the pastor looked right at me...and said...I don't mean you say the words...I forgive...and walk away...I mean...it comes from your heart...you let the anger go...put it in God's hands...and forgive...I remember thinking...not yet...but I will try...
my sister was rape by her high school crush...and I was the only one she told...before she told me...she had me swear on a bible I wouldn't tell anyone...for 30 years I lived
that rape with her...until she finally told my mother...
at the time it happened I so wanted to tell my father...but I knew he would have killed him...he lived across the street from us...
I wasn't even the one raped...even though at times it felt
like it...so every time I try to forgive this guy...memories
flood my head...maybe if it had been me I could forgive him...but it was my sister...and she was not the fighter...I was...I say at times....I forgive him...but it's not etched in stone just yet...my sister passed last year...and I believe in my heart she forgave him...I guess if she could forgive...so can I...
thank you for sharing your story told...as your story was so very sad...your poem was very well written...and your picture says it all...I'm so glad you found healing through God...God Bless...love you...Linda xxoo
Comment Written 09-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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Linda, the love for your sister was maybe even worse in some way for you, because of that love. Feeling helpless is also one of the worse feelings.
My feelings of being helpless of being through the molestation but when I turned into an adult, I feared that if I told my dad, he might have killed him and then my godfather's threat would come true, that something bad would happen to my daddy. He would have died in prison. Either way I was still stuck. Then later after the monster died and I told my story, I found out that two of my sisters had also been molested by him and that they couldn't tell either for the same reasons. As we also found out why my cousin, his oldest daughter committed suicide at the age of 22. My mother never did know as she died young, but it is maybe just as well. My daddy suffered so bad, as his heart was broken that he had not been there for his little girls. That part made me wish I had never spoke up. But his love was healing for us all, so we were blessed to have the love of our dad and our Father in Heaven.
God Bless you my beautiful friend, and you will now be on my prayer list.
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with my dad...I was afraid of the same thing you were...I didn't want to put him in prison...
when we were kids and boys came over...he would drill them...15 years old...are you working?...what do you want to do for a living?...what are you taking in college?...
my mother had to come and save us...
so the way your dad was with us...I knew he would...without a doubt...he would have killed him...
I sit here crying just thinking of how he
terrorized your family...and his own daughter...and she couldn't walk away...
he will be judged by God...but it still hurts...I guess that's where...you have to forgive...but you won't forget...
God Bless you as well...and I will keep you in my prayers...and we truly are blessed with
our Father in heaven... 🙏🙏💕🌼😊
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'Amen my sister! 😘
Comment from Jannypan (Jan)
You did a great job sharing your traumatic experience
in the hope it will help others, Mystery Author. Your words
are well thought out with great, but sad, imagery. I'm
proud of you that you were finally able to face the past and
move forward. Yes, your faith and your new found faith,
plus the support of family helped. Your lines read smooth with good
rhymes. Your poem is a wakeup call that others need to read
and realize they are not to blame and there is support.
Thanks for sharing and best wishes in the contest, Jan
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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You did a great job sharing your traumatic experience
in the hope it will help others, Mystery Author. Your words
are well thought out with great, but sad, imagery. I'm
proud of you that you were finally able to face the past and
move forward. Yes, your faith and your new found faith,
plus the support of family helped. Your lines read smooth with good
rhymes. Your poem is a wakeup call that others need to read
and realize they are not to blame and there is support.
Thanks for sharing and best wishes in the contest, Jan
Comment Written 09-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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Thank you Jan for your very kind and caring words. We later found out that two of my older sisters had also been molested by him, when my father left his three daughters in their care after his first wife died and the girls were 3, 4 and 5 years old. They stayed there until he married my mother a couple years later. Then we also found out why his oldest daughter committed suicide at the age of 22. He was a very sick man. My decision to share this served the purpose that I intended, as many have come forward and shared their similar experiences with me. Thanks again my dear friend!
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🙏Prayers to you & your family
🌹Sweet rose for your bravery
❤️ Love from me & our God
🐦 Sweet birds to Bless you
I commend you for sharing!
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Thank you my wonderful friend! Love you!
And Abby too! ❤️ 🐈⬛ 🤗
Comment from Terry Broxson
An exceptional well-written poem for this contest, good luck. I don't understand why people would do this to someone. But to choose a seven-year-old is unforgivable. You are a Phoenix rising above the ashes of the despicable human beings. Excellent work. Terry.
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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An exceptional well-written poem for this contest, good luck. I don't understand why people would do this to someone. But to choose a seven-year-old is unforgivable. You are a Phoenix rising above the ashes of the despicable human beings. Excellent work. Terry.
Comment Written 09-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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I thank you Terry from the bottom of my heart. This was a very hard write for me, but did so with the idea that if it helped one other person, it would be worth it. I was actually shocked to see how many women have written to me telling of stories they have not told before. It made it all worth it to me. Thank you so much for your gracious gift of six stars. I appreciate them and accept in honor of all those other victims as well. Thanks again my dear friend!
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Mrs. Mystery writer, you are welcome!
Comment from harmony13
The author's words are painful, courageous, brave, hopeful, promising, descriptive and creative. Thank you for the author's notes - they speak
volumes as I also believe they will educate others. As I thought about the author's words, finding faith in God got her through very difficult times. The artwork is perfect and compliments this poem. An Exceptional Poem
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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The author's words are painful, courageous, brave, hopeful, promising, descriptive and creative. Thank you for the author's notes - they speak
volumes as I also believe they will educate others. As I thought about the author's words, finding faith in God got her through very difficult times. The artwork is perfect and compliments this poem. An Exceptional Poem
Comment Written 09-Aug-2022
reply by the author on 09-Aug-2022
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Thank you Maria for your very kind and caring words. I also truly appreciated your generous gift of six stars. I accept them in honor of all the victims who's childhood was also destroyed by the evil of a man who had not conscience. My decision to share this served the purpose that I intended, as many have come forward and shared their similar experiences with me. Thanks again my friend.
