Magnum PI Was My Dad
Hate fills the emptiness.34 total reviews
Comment from Terry Broxson
I am sorry, I don't have a six. The contest does not require you to forgive someone. Frankly, I don't think life requires forgiveness, either. The pathos in your story is exceptional, as are your insights.
I have seen people profess forgiveness for inhuman transgressions because of their faith. Honestly, I am not sure I trust their words. Maybe they do, I don't know.
Your writing is remarkable, thank you for entering the contest. Terry.
reply by the author on 12-Jan-2023
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I am sorry, I don't have a six. The contest does not require you to forgive someone. Frankly, I don't think life requires forgiveness, either. The pathos in your story is exceptional, as are your insights.
I have seen people profess forgiveness for inhuman transgressions because of their faith. Honestly, I am not sure I trust their words. Maybe they do, I don't know.
Your writing is remarkable, thank you for entering the contest. Terry.
Comment Written 12-Jan-2023
reply by the author on 12-Jan-2023
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Yes, it is an honest reflection on how I feel. Being human is ugly sometimes.
Comment from Barbara Peabody Pouliot
Thank you for sharing. That takes great courage. Putting it to light does help, first step in the correct direction. Acknowledging the deep rooted pain it has caused you...another step in the correct direction. I personally feel that forgiveness does not come until you heal your pain and true feelings around this. This is not about guilt about not forgiving.This is about YOU, YOUR PAIN, YOUR DISAPPOINTMENT, YOUR ANGER. You must find a way to release that in a healthy way, for you. Scream in a pillow, beat a pillow, cry, it is ok for men to cry.
Once you heal yourself you will be free to find forgiveness.
I must add my sense of humor, but it works. Buy 2 dozen eggs, and a new bucket.
Go to a private place where you can yell and curse. Take one egg at a time. Let a deep feeling surface, and whip the egg in the bucket, as the words come out! I think maybe 2 dozen might help.
When you are done, go home, strain the shells and prepare scrambled eggs for your beautiful children!
This has helped me, lol. Recipe proven to work, lolð???ð???ð???
reply by the author on 12-Jan-2023
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Thank you for sharing. That takes great courage. Putting it to light does help, first step in the correct direction. Acknowledging the deep rooted pain it has caused you...another step in the correct direction. I personally feel that forgiveness does not come until you heal your pain and true feelings around this. This is not about guilt about not forgiving.This is about YOU, YOUR PAIN, YOUR DISAPPOINTMENT, YOUR ANGER. You must find a way to release that in a healthy way, for you. Scream in a pillow, beat a pillow, cry, it is ok for men to cry.
Once you heal yourself you will be free to find forgiveness.
I must add my sense of humor, but it works. Buy 2 dozen eggs, and a new bucket.
Go to a private place where you can yell and curse. Take one egg at a time. Let a deep feeling surface, and whip the egg in the bucket, as the words come out! I think maybe 2 dozen might help.
When you are done, go home, strain the shells and prepare scrambled eggs for your beautiful children!
This has helped me, lol. Recipe proven to work, lolð???ð???ð???
Comment Written 12-Jan-2023
reply by the author on 12-Jan-2023
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Might need all the eggs they have in the store! Good stuff. I really do appreciate you!!!!
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Lol
Start with 2 dozen
You can always get more another day.
? Be right back kids, scrambled eggs day today? lol
Comment from Faith Williams
I think as humans we tend to think that forgiveness is a once and done deal while the truth is much more complex. To me, sometimes forgiveness is just that, but much of the time, forgiveness is a journey. It is something that needs to be worked on daily. Sometimes no progress is made, sometimes, tiny steps forward, and other times, you seem to move backwards.
Additionally, some humans seem to think that forgiveness implies that things will make everything okay, that things will be perfectly 'normal.' Yes, God forgives us when we ask for that forgiveness, but He doesn't take away the consequences of our actions. So, while at some point, you may forgive your father, it doesn't mean you have to have a relationship with him. Forgiveness does not equate or imply reconciliation though as humans we tend to interchange the two.
How to forgive? There is no easy answer. I believe that God sees your heart. He knows you want to forgive, so I suggest you talk it over with Him. Every day. Every time you're angry. Because ultimately, He is the one who can bring about that change, that forgiveness in your heart. Just remember it's a journey. One step at a time. One day at a time. I hope this was helpful.
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reply by the author on 12-Jan-2023
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I think as humans we tend to think that forgiveness is a once and done deal while the truth is much more complex. To me, sometimes forgiveness is just that, but much of the time, forgiveness is a journey. It is something that needs to be worked on daily. Sometimes no progress is made, sometimes, tiny steps forward, and other times, you seem to move backwards.
Additionally, some humans seem to think that forgiveness implies that things will make everything okay, that things will be perfectly 'normal.' Yes, God forgives us when we ask for that forgiveness, but He doesn't take away the consequences of our actions. So, while at some point, you may forgive your father, it doesn't mean you have to have a relationship with him. Forgiveness does not equate or imply reconciliation though as humans we tend to interchange the two.
How to forgive? There is no easy answer. I believe that God sees your heart. He knows you want to forgive, so I suggest you talk it over with Him. Every day. Every time you're angry. Because ultimately, He is the one who can bring about that change, that forgiveness in your heart. Just remember it's a journey. One step at a time. One day at a time. I hope this was helpful.
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Comment Written 12-Jan-2023
reply by the author on 12-Jan-2023
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Thank you Faith, you are very wise. You nailed me with thinking that forgiveness makes everything alright. Maybe like a "do-over".
I'm still so angry. Thought that should pass with time. Hasn't.
Thank you my friend, for the great insight.
Comment from Dolly'sPoems
This is a heartfelt story and I am so sorry that your Father treated you like this. Very few people have an ideal upbringing and we all have a few skeletons in the cupboard. Your Father was violent and abusive toward you and it is hard to forgive those things. I am not sure if a relationship with your Father is something that you want to invite into your happy life and I would think twice about that. This does not mean that you cannot forgive him. Forgiving means that you free yourself of the hurt in the past and it is worth considering. Your Father will never change and you have to understand that before you invite him back. We can forgive but we should not always forget. Your story is touching and I am honoured to read your heartfelt story here, love Dolly x
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This is a heartfelt story and I am so sorry that your Father treated you like this. Very few people have an ideal upbringing and we all have a few skeletons in the cupboard. Your Father was violent and abusive toward you and it is hard to forgive those things. I am not sure if a relationship with your Father is something that you want to invite into your happy life and I would think twice about that. This does not mean that you cannot forgive him. Forgiving means that you free yourself of the hurt in the past and it is worth considering. Your Father will never change and you have to understand that before you invite him back. We can forgive but we should not always forget. Your story is touching and I am honoured to read your heartfelt story here, love Dolly x
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Comment Written 12-Jan-2023
reply by the author on 12-Jan-2023
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Thank you my friend. I?m not sure if Fanstory is the best venue for such pieces, but it did actually feel really good to write about it.
