| Biographical Non-Fiction posted December 29, 2023 | Chapters: |
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Illusion or real I'm opting for real
A chapter in the book Spectre
Heavens Gate
by Lea Tonin1
Insidious
that is its name
which loves its way through our souls
Carnivorous
that is its name
which caresses in blood mangled touch
fatalist
that is its name
which strolled in enticing deceitful guise
darkness
that is its name...
devours light....
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Ouch...My burns had progressed into a fun infection. Back to the hospital I went so they could poke and prod, peel away some skin, put goo on and bandage things up. Then gave me pills and sent me home. The pain is lessened so I can now come and share with you again!
I'm not particularly wimpy when it comes to pain, since I've been subjected to it so many times. Doesn't mean it's good it just means I know the process. Having said that though I am definitely allergic to pain! I will have a nice scar to remember my 2023 Christmas. Perhaps it will look like a wreath or a present at least it'll be the right color LOL.
The one thing I found interesting in today's hospital care here in Canada is that I've heard a lot of nurses say that's not their job. I don't know what happened to our medical care system but it's really gone down. I'm not saying the nurses or anyone particular person is at fault, simply that it's a group thing with greed at the very top of the list. Someone's pocket is seriously getting lined. It is what it is and we deal with what we must.
Soon the holiday season will be gone and we must all knuckle down back to our lives again but I would say this in this moment at this time of year, can you not feel more love in the air? Even though the world has commercialized the season you still cannot stop the love from flowing as this world is black and white as I see it.
Some good, some bad and the good flows at this time of year. Like a fluidic arm full of sparkle and light and glow that spreads itself around the world for a big hug.
That's the feeling I get. Good then, I'm going to go with it! We've all taken a break from our lives for this season but, the girl in the past didn't get any breaks so I'm going to go back there for now...it's time to move her along.
All aboard the time train!
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I opened my eyes for a moment, the world looked like I was underwater! Everything was wavy, swimming about.
I could barely keep my eyes open. I shut them again. I don't know how much time went by before I could put together a coherent moment. Snippets of time here and there, little pieces of memory floating about. Someone was putting something cool on my forehead and then another where someone was trying to feed me some soup and some water. People talking in quiet mumbles in the background. Jumbled pieces of mash that I could make no sense of. No timeline could I place with it either. I could remember someone changing the sheets just rolling me gently from one side to the other.
I vaguely thought, "I hope that I didn't mess myself."
I had some funky delirious dreams too. Some not so great. Dreams of being chased in the dark, always with this sense of foreboding and the chase went on and on. There was an older man too. I don't know if he was part of my delirium or if he was real. He was testing my fever and listening to my heart. I was pretty sure that was real...or not.
I woke up again, but that time I wasn't feeling so delirious. I felt cool, a little more comfortable then I had been. I looked around the room, there's only myself. The world wasn't swimming anymore which pleased me greatly since the idea of being underwater and breathing at the same time was freaky to me. My eyes closed again but this time it was to a long dreamless sleep of recovery.
I'm not sure what time had passed but, when I did wake up, I woke to a rumbling stomach and a full bladder I could only count this as good news. I slowly sat up swung my legs over the side of the bed. Gently I tested my weight on my trembling legs, held them there for a moment and when I was confident I wasn't going to fall over, I made my journey to the bathroom. How do you spell relief?
P.I.S.S.!
Feeling much relieved, I open the door and looked in both directions. I heard voices coming from the kitchen, I walked slowly there.
"Oh my dear, you're awake. How are you feeling?" Mrs B asked with a concerned expression on her face. My new friend P pulled out a chair for me.
"I'm ok I think...a little wobbly, very thirsty," I answered.
"Oh goodness, of course and hungry too no doubt. Here's some juice and I'll get you a cup for tea."
She made up a plate too which she used to put some crepes on with strawberries and whipping cream too. I've never tasted anything so heavenly in my life! I looked up at her with a grateful expression on my face and my cheeks full of whipping cream. Trying to drink juice at the same time. Finally I finished filling my face, stomach so full I couldn't put in another bite! It took me less than five minutes and my head started to nod again. I tried to fight it but my eyes just would not stay open.
"Oh young lady, you need to rest more. You've only just come out of your fever. Come on then, off to bed," Mrs B said. I didn't argue with her I simply let her steer me back to bed.
She drew the covers over me and then said to me, "Perhaps when you wake my dear, we can talk about how you got those bruises."
"How I got those bruises..." I thought. "That's the real question...."
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That was the best, tasty meal I can remember by far from any Day of my Life I don't think that has been topped since. I'm so lost in the funky feelings of Christmas kinds of being a long time is spent with my sister too so I didn't have to close my eyes all the way through it this time.
Now it's time to think seriously all the things I'm grateful for and the list is growing.
Thank you everyone! May the new year bring you only good things!
Until we meet again....
Insidious
that is its name
which loves its way through our souls
Carnivorous
that is its name
which caresses in blood mangled touch
fatalist
that is its name
which strolled in enticing deceitful guise
darkness
that is its name...
devours light....
********************************************************
Ouch...My burns had progressed into a fun infection. Back to the hospital I went so they could poke and prod, peel away some skin, put goo on and bandage things up. Then gave me pills and sent me home. The pain is lessened so I can now come and share with you again!
I'm not particularly wimpy when it comes to pain, since I've been subjected to it so many times. Doesn't mean it's good it just means I know the process. Having said that though I am definitely allergic to pain! I will have a nice scar to remember my 2023 Christmas. Perhaps it will look like a wreath or a present at least it'll be the right color LOL.
The one thing I found interesting in today's hospital care here in Canada is that I've heard a lot of nurses say that's not their job. I don't know what happened to our medical care system but it's really gone down. I'm not saying the nurses or anyone particular person is at fault, simply that it's a group thing with greed at the very top of the list. Someone's pocket is seriously getting lined. It is what it is and we deal with what we must.
Soon the holiday season will be gone and we must all knuckle down back to our lives again but I would say this in this moment at this time of year, can you not feel more love in the air? Even though the world has commercialized the season you still cannot stop the love from flowing as this world is black and white as I see it.
Some good, some bad and the good flows at this time of year. Like a fluidic arm full of sparkle and light and glow that spreads itself around the world for a big hug.
That's the feeling I get. Good then, I'm going to go with it! We've all taken a break from our lives for this season but, the girl in the past didn't get any breaks so I'm going to go back there for now...it's time to move her along.
All aboard the time train!
*********************************************************************************
I opened my eyes for a moment, the world looked like I was underwater! Everything was wavy, swimming about.
I could barely keep my eyes open. I shut them again. I don't know how much time went by before I could put together a coherent moment. Snippets of time here and there, little pieces of memory floating about. Someone was putting something cool on my forehead and then another where someone was trying to feed me some soup and some water. People talking in quiet mumbles in the background. Jumbled pieces of mash that I could make no sense of. No timeline could I place with it either. I could remember someone changing the sheets just rolling me gently from one side to the other.
I vaguely thought, "I hope that I didn't mess myself."
I had some funky delirious dreams too. Some not so great. Dreams of being chased in the dark, always with this sense of foreboding and the chase went on and on. There was an older man too. I don't know if he was part of my delirium or if he was real. He was testing my fever and listening to my heart. I was pretty sure that was real...or not.
I woke up again, but that time I wasn't feeling so delirious. I felt cool, a little more comfortable then I had been. I looked around the room, there's only myself. The world wasn't swimming anymore which pleased me greatly since the idea of being underwater and breathing at the same time was freaky to me. My eyes closed again but this time it was to a long dreamless sleep of recovery.
I'm not sure what time had passed but, when I did wake up, I woke to a rumbling stomach and a full bladder I could only count this as good news. I slowly sat up swung my legs over the side of the bed. Gently I tested my weight on my trembling legs, held them there for a moment and when I was confident I wasn't going to fall over, I made my journey to the bathroom. How do you spell relief?
P.I.S.S.!
Feeling much relieved, I open the door and looked in both directions. I heard voices coming from the kitchen, I walked slowly there.
"Oh my dear, you're awake. How are you feeling?" Mrs B asked with a concerned expression on her face. My new friend P pulled out a chair for me.
"I'm ok I think...a little wobbly, very thirsty," I answered.
"Oh goodness, of course and hungry too no doubt. Here's some juice and I'll get you a cup for tea."
She made up a plate too which she used to put some crepes on with strawberries and whipping cream too. I've never tasted anything so heavenly in my life! I looked up at her with a grateful expression on my face and my cheeks full of whipping cream. Trying to drink juice at the same time. Finally I finished filling my face, stomach so full I couldn't put in another bite! It took me less than five minutes and my head started to nod again. I tried to fight it but my eyes just would not stay open.
"Oh young lady, you need to rest more. You've only just come out of your fever. Come on then, off to bed," Mrs B said. I didn't argue with her I simply let her steer me back to bed.
She drew the covers over me and then said to me, "Perhaps when you wake my dear, we can talk about how you got those bruises."
"How I got those bruises..." I thought. "That's the real question...."
*****************************************************************
That was the best, tasty meal I can remember by far from any Day of my Life I don't think that has been topped since. I'm so lost in the funky feelings of Christmas kinds of being a long time is spent with my sister too so I didn't have to close my eyes all the way through it this time.
Now it's time to think seriously all the things I'm grateful for and the list is growing.
Thank you everyone! May the new year bring you only good things!
Until we meet again....
This story is part of an autobio called Spectre, book two of a trilogy. Book one is called Ghost. Both can be found in my portfolio should you wish to read. A note of caution, some chapters are hard to digest
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